I find it hard to look in the mirror,
seeing yesterday through my eyes,
remembering and always wondering if it was the right embrace.
I take short glimpses into the mirror,
to find something fresh yet I do not,
I see the sorrow, I see the tears. I don't know who's looking back.
I see a small crack in the mirror,
I want to look but I am unsure,
if it actually is the mirror or if its once more a broken me.
She is who I dont want to be,
she is crestfallen, scared, she is lost.
I keep looking and I keep searching,
just standing staring at this girl.
Pleading with her for forgiveness,
for closure and for peace.
I want tomorrow's mirror,
to show strength, passion, kindness, love,
but as I ponder I still just see yesterday....
Regretful and rejected,
When will this ever cease?